Fluffy Happiness

I've had an extremely mellow weekend due to fatigue. I think being pregnant is finally hitting me. After boasting that I felt super fine and energetic, I hit a wall, and spent all my time feeling like lead in bed. I wasn't sick, and Dav and I suspect I may have been dehydrated. I started noticing about a week ago that it's getting a little hard to move around normally. And I guess there was a lot more physical stress than I felt...I feel much better now, but will be more attentive to drinking, eating, and resting more than I think I need.

Anyhow, one big gift of happiness came to me around 2:30 am on Saturday night. You know about me letting the cats out, and how I've had minor scares waiting for them to come back. Well, it happened again.

This time I let Kats out at 7pm (Waka wasn't interested). Little did I know that our downstairs neighbor was going to have a big party. I'm totally fine with the party, but once Kats was out, I knew he'd be too frightened to come back into our noisy building, run up the stairs, and pass the booming 2nd floor apartment to our 3rd floor door that I keep ajar. I went down into the garage where the back door is to call for Kats about 6 times with no luck. By midnight, I couldn't bear it and allowed myself to sleep...fitfully with visions of Kats being lost, never coming back, or a neighbor calling with bad news. I just hoped he was safe. Deep down I knew he would come back, and that I should trust Mr. Kats. Still, it was hard. I definitely was asleep around 2:30, but my subconscious must have been alert since I somehow woke when he finally waltzed in. The happiness and absolute gratitude! I hugged and thanked Kats, then poked a sleepy Dav to share my joy.

So although I set this all up for myself, it's once again a moment to appreciate how much I love Kats! And Waka too for snuggling with me while we waited : )

Comments

[Helen]

Oh sistah! You know I know exactly how you feel. Sometimes when I'm going through a kind of fearful place in my life, I'll have nightmares about Willow being lost. I so appreciate your love for those little ones! In my feverish state yesterday I was thinking about you and wondering how your house hunt is going?